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I am sorry it has been so long. I had a rough time with this surgery. I finally came home last night. I think this type of surgery is hard on any woman, but it is even more so after chemo and with diabetes.

I did well during surgery, it was the recovery that kicked my butt. First off my body did not respond to the morphine, and later when they tried it again, caused my airway to close. I was placed on a spinal block for the first 24 hours. I did provide some entertainment though, I was put on some super drug similar to morphine and well, I hallucinated with that one, lol. At one point I was talking to dragons I was told.

I was in ICU for the first 24 hours. But I was not allowed up because my blood pressure dropped way too low. I ended up back in ICU following a bout with my liver, throwing up and a drop in my body temp. Finally, late yesterday, I was OK to go home.

I am really sore, and truth be told last night I was really mad at the whole thing. But I am better today and ready to start facing the world so to speak. While I was being placed back in ICU o Friday, Micah, my youngest, was in the ER after breaking his wrist at school. So Friday the 13th definitely lived up to it's name for our family, lol.

Joshua, my oldest is struggling with it all. He broke down Friday night and cried. He needed to cry. To let it all out. He hates the cancer and what it has done to us. I tried to tell him, that in time, this will all be behind us. It's really hard on the kids. They understand, but just aren't old enough to cope.

Anyway, I am home. We are all dealing and healing. It may be a few days between posts for a while. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers.

Christi na