Mending the Broken Pieces, My Conversation With God...

Christina---
God, are you there?

God----
Yes child.

Christina---
Have I disappointed you?

God ---
No, not at all child.

Christina---
Are you sure God?

God---
I am sure.




Christina---
Then why has this happened?
Why me?
Why my life and my family?
Why have You allowed this beast to drag me into her den?
To feast upon me, and scar me like she has?
Can't I just stay here, in the darkness... forever?
Can I choose to forget everything?
To just sleep.
To be rid of her scales?
God?
I am really tired.
I do not want to battle this merciless beast.
I do not! I do not! I do not want to!

God---
Christina...breathe.
Stop holding your breathe.
Go on, child just breathe .

Christina---
(Loud exhale)

God---
Ah, doesn't that feel better?
Wake up now.

Christina---
No, I don't want to.

God---
But it's time...
Open your eyes, Christina.

Christina---
I don't think so God.
No, I just don't think I am ready.

God---
Open your eyes Christina.

Christina---
Not yet.

God---
Christina...
Please open your eyes?

Christina---
I told You,
I'm not ready.

God---
Christina,...
Do You trust Me?

Christina---
But I'm scared.
I'm scared to see all I have lost.

God---
Lost?
What have you lost?

Christina---
My breast,
my life,
all that I have known.

God---
Child open your eyes.
See all you have been given.

Christina---
Been Given?
Are you kidding me?
How do You figure?
Haven't I just lost my breast?
What have I been given God?
Have You seen me lately?

God---
Yes, I have.

Christina---
What are you trying to tell me God?
Are You saying I am not deformed?
You don't see my uniboob?
Come on God...
do I really have to, spell it out,
let the -cat- out of- the- bag
here for You?
After all You did create me with two.
Let's do the math...
Two minus one equals...
One!!!!!!!
Don't You think something is just a bit , well, off here?

God---
I see you child.
I see your spirit.
I see your soul.
I can see all that you were.
I see all that you are.
And I see all that you will be.

Christina---
Will be?
Um...
No breast here God!
What can I be except a freak of nature?

God---
Need I remind you child ...
I am the One who created nature?
I see the woman you have become.
I see the mother you are.
I still see in you...
the child you once were.
I see My daughter...
I see her is standing in front of me, completely whole.

Christina---
You see me ... whole?

God---
Child, I see all these things.
Do you not know this already?

Christina---
But God...

God---
But what child?
Can you not see?
Have I not given you insight?
Look!
Open your eyes...
See all your life...
It is waiting for you.
All you need to do is ,
wake up and
open your eyes.

Christina---
How can I?
I just want to sleep.
Can't I just stay here in the darkness?

God---
No, child.
That is not My plan for you.

Now Wake Up!

Christina---
But my eyes are still closed.

God---
Then open your eyes Christina!
Wake up child.
Don't look back.
Don't look beside you.
Look only to the front of you.
See all the beauty,
the joy and
the hope yet to come.
After all this time,
my child...
don't you yet know?
It is I, holding your heart?

I AM always with you.
I have never left your side.

Christina---
But I'm afraid.

God---
I know.
Take My hand.

Christina---
I don't want to see the scar.

God---
What scar?
I don't see a scar child.

Christina---
You don't!
Are you sure, God?

God---
Yes child, I am very sure.
I only see you.
I give you this promise:
All your worries,
I will replace with Strength.
All your fears,
I will replace with Hope.
All your pain,
I will replace with Courage.

Child, I will not leave you!
I will not turn My back on you.
Child... wake up.
Open your eyes.
It is time.

Christina---
Just breathe?

God---
Yes.

Christina---
OK...
One.
Two.
Three.

Johnny---
Christina,
Are you OK?

Christina---
I will be.

Johnny---
Are you sure?

Christina---
Yep.
I have His promise.

Johnny---
Who?
What?
His promise?

Christina---
God said,
"He would mend all my broken pieces".

Johnny---
What?

Christina---
I just need to trust Him!