I’m an optimist. Always have been, and always will be. It’s just who I am. I like to see the good in people and situations. I try to look past the negative. Not that I don't have moments of doubt and skepticism or hesitation. I do. I’m a realist too. I understand that not everything is going to come up roses. However, just because I have moments of confusion or uncertainty doesn’t mean I lose hope. I always have hope. Some folks ask how I keep a smile on my face, especially when I’m at my lowest. I’ll be real with you here. I may be an optimist, but I’ve learned how to hide my pain and smile through it. Sometimes it’s easier to smile rather than explain. Chronic illness has taken a lot from me. Especially in the past 3 years. Surgeries, loss and grief have taken their toll. Estrangement has broken me. And yes, I feel every pin and needle prick drawing more and more energy from me every day. Still, I smile. Why? Because I have hope that whatever the outcome, I’ll find peace ...
What a beautiful article! You're a very inspiring woman! I love the photograph of you & your boys! You can see the love & determination on all of your faces!
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You are a talented writer also! I seem drawn to wonderful writers:) Maybe I want to be one? lol
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Ann
You know every time I see an alert for a post from you, I smile...it doesn't matter what's going in my day, it's a guaranteed smile. I read your article hon, Joshua and Micah have so much to be proud of you for. Please tell them how very proud of them I am, how courageous they both were standing by you. This wasn't an easy journey, but the love you had for one another made you stronger as a family. I love each and every one of you. (Hugs)Indigo
ReplyDeleteWhat a great entry... You and your family have endured so much.. what you have to say will be such an inspiration to so many others... I wish you the best in everything you do... your family is amazing...I have read your entries often but do not always comment... you are always in my thoughts and more so in my prayers... God bless...
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Have a wonderful weekend.
ReplyDeleteThanks for a great journal, and to Indigo for getting the word out about your writing. I'm not the first to say it, but you really are an inspiration, Christina.
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I followed a journal that lead to another journal that lead me here. I wish you had an email link so I could email you my story. I had another cancer and the radiation for that cancer gave me breast cancer.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing the links. Your article brought happy tears to my eyes. :)
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